The point of a blog is to write things that can be of interest and inspiring to others right? (well I think that should be the point of a blog... some others may disagree.) I don't know if I'll really speak to anybody from this blog or not, but my prayer is that if any one does wander across this that the words they find here will be meaningful to them.
Enough about that! I want to talk about life! I think I would like to keep this blog up just to have an opportunity to write about what God is doing in my life, as a missionary wife, and as a momma. To give a little background, I have a beautiful daughter who is just over a year old, and My husband and I were recently approved as missionaries.
We are currently raising support so that we can live on the field, and it can be exciting, but its not easy. Yeah. We quit our jobs, moved in with family (yikes!) and are due to hit the road in just a few weeks. We'll be on the road for 12 weeks straight before we have a short break and then it picks back up again. Its a truly insane time of our lives! I was looking over our finances yesterday and realized that we have LESS coming in than we need in order to pay all our expenses!! WHAT!!?? I couldn't believe it...
"How are we surviving?"
"God always provides," was my husband's answer to me. I stared out the window and silently praised my father in heaven for providing for us, and I was KICKING myself for taking so much for granted. God is always faithful! Seamlessly each month he has been providing that extra money, I had hardly even noticed. What an awesome God we serve!
I have been working on memorizing scripture. Its something I really should of been working on for a long time, but to be completely frank I hadn't been. I realized though at this time in my life that I need to be spending as much time with my Father as I can right now, meditating on his promises and word. The road ahead is going to be difficult and discouraging at times, but by keeping His words close to my heart I will hopefully be able to stand strong during the hard times. Wait, I KNOW my GOD will hold me up strong during the hard times. Just read the verse I was meditating on for this month
Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you, Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
This verse is like, "Hello girl! What do you have to be discouraged about? God is right there with you, making you stronger, holding you up!" He's making sure the bills get paid, He's keeping the car running, He's putting food on the table. And you know what? Even if a bill doesn't get paid, even if we have no money for gas, He's still there! He still has a plan! and he certainly wasn't surprised!
So I want to close with these Hillsong lyrics that have been rattling around in my head for a while, they express so much of what I feel in my heart right now. I am so thankful that I serve such a wonderful God who is constantly providing for me even though I don't deserve it. He certainly deserves my praise.
I will believe
you are strong enough, in my weakness, God be lifted up
and I will sing
lift your praises high, Lord be magnified, you make all things new
I will believe
Praise God in the trials and in the blessings! I can't wait to see how much my faith grows through these coming years!
Are you having trouble believing? or Has God made it obvious to you recently how he is providing for you?
